morning sunshine, wakie wakie
Jun 14, '08 4:05 PM
after weeks of another hibernation, i again am up and ready to face the challenges that may come my way. thanks to those who were there boosting my ever waning ego during my lowest days. i was almost decided on ending everything, but then again, i realized that i don't have any right to do so. when a saw a little thread of hope hanging just above my nose, i was reluctant to grab it because i can't find any reason to. but then i grabbed it anyway.
so i started going out lately. like a toddler on his first day on the nursery school, i crawled my way out into the unknown realm. seeing familiar faces and places erased some of the fears. an old classmate asked me 'ba't hindi ka na nagsusulat ng blog?' when i bumped into her while i was fixing my late enrollment this week. she was referring to my friendster blog because i used to write there quite regularly. (i also copy/paste some of my blogs from here to my friendster blog when i run out of time to write.) i never thought people do read my blog too. i only write when i feel like writing. most of the things that i blog (or i want to blog) are those that would inspire other people but lately i have been writing complaints so i stopped writing online and put all my angst on paper. i have been keeping a loose paper diary where i only write on when im so heightened by an intense emotion (either im so down or im so happy) and there is nobody to speak with. so most of the entries are months apart.
now that im back, i'll try to blog as often as i could. i just hope that my residency would be extended so i could work on my thesis this semester (since i have already given up my job). that would mean i'll be writing a lot and probably i'd blog more than usual. ;)
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