dreaming in color as i normally do but this time i got them neatly tucked in a palette, in all sorts of hue ;)
Monday, December 31, 2007
Happy 2008!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Stupidity 101
friday night, the night i so wish to undo some things at. it kept on haunting my disoriented and traumatized being. two nightmares passed, i couldnt bear it anymore so im gonna write about it. very embarrassing that act of stupidity i must admit. but im no longer ashamed of it. yes, i can be stupid sometimes (or maybe a little bit more than sometimes) but i think it wasnt stupid at all.
i may seem suspicious at times but i've always had a very trusting soul. i always give the benefit of the doubt to everyone (with so little exception) and i always pray that they are what they seem to be. if being trustful the same thing as being stupid, then i cannot deny that i am (or had been) stupid. i so want to elaborate, with some details like the place and the time and the events that transpired, but i just cant. the details that i could only supply were very subjective.
human instinct can be a hundred percent accurate, or a little less (or way way less) but nevertheless we must take heed upon. i dunno why i went against that instinct. it was such a moronic (go UP morons!) act when i was so aware that it's a trap that i'm getting into but still didnt draw myself out of it. such a foolish moth that took some chance with the flame. i was just an inch away from a sure death. it could've been worse. the thing is, it wasnt only my life i put in peril but of another innocent soul. if something worse happened, i would never forgive myself.
such traumatic incident could last a lifetime to a very fragile spirit but i hope she and i would recover very soon. we escaped the danger but it's not guaranteed that we're safe now. maybe it's just a prelude to a tragedy, but i pray the contrary.
i'm struggling hard to get back to my optimistic self. that happy, positive and grateful me days ago which was caused by that accidental enlightenment weeks ago. maybe this is just a test. i must surpass this. i know i can. how i pray i would.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Shut up Lei!
when i was little, i thought, i could only witness violence in the idiot box we call television, on the news and also in the movies. i felt so safe and protected then, unaware that i've been given small doses of it as i grow up, making me a little immune to such savagery. i was ten when i witnessed a very unpleasant event. i cannot take it off my mind. there was a thunderstorm. the power was out and it was way past midnight. i heard a very faint moan followed by a whispered argument. the discussion grew louder and as i can't bear it, i climbed down my bed and followed the source of the commotion.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
from my egroup [whatsuppaws] Animals in Glorietta Blast
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Evanescence - "Good Enough"
Friday, October 12, 2007
PROST! oktoBIERfest!
| Start: | Oct 19, '07 7:00p |
| Location: | Katips Bar & Grillery |
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Big Mistake
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Pop |
| Artist: | Natalie Imbruglia |
There's no sign on the gate
And there's mud on your face
Don't you think it's time we re-investigate this situation
Put some fruit on your plate
You forgotten how it started
Close your eyes
Think of all the bubbles of love we made
And you're down on your knees
It's too late
Oh don't come crawlin'
And you lie by my feet
What a big mistake
I see you fallin'
Got a buzz in my head
And my flowers are dead
Can't figure out a way to rectify this situation
Don't believe what you said
You forgotten how it started
Close your eyes
Think of all the bubbles of love we made
And you're down on your knees
It's too late
Oh don't come crawlin'
And you lie by my feet
What a big mistake
I see you fallin'
I could sting like a bee
Careful how you treat me
Baby I don't think I'll except your sorry invitation
Close the door as you leave
You forgotten how it started
Close your eyes
Think of all the bubbles of love we made
And you're down on your knees
It's too late
Oh don't come crawlin'
And you lie by my feet
What a big mistake
I see you fallin'
And you cry over me
I can't wait
I feel you stallin'
And you try to reach me
What a big mistake
I hear you callin'
And you're down on your knees
It's too late
Oh don't come crawlin'
And you lie by my feet
What a big mistake
I see you fallin'
Smoke
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Other |
| Artist: | Natalie Imbruglia |
My lullaby,hung out to dry
Whats up with that
Its over
Where are you dad
Mums lookin sad
Whats up with that
Its dark in here
Why bleeding is breathing
Youre hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is believing
I used to
My mouth is dry
Forgot how to cry
Whats up with that
Youre hurting me
Im running fast
Cant hide the past
Whats up with that
Youre pushing me
Why , bleeding is breathing
Youre hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is believing
I used to
I used to
Why , bleeding is breathing
Youre hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is breathing
I saw you crawling on the floor
Why , bleeding is breathing
Youre hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is breathing
I saw you crawling to the door
Why , bleeding is breathing
Youre hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is breathing
I saw you falling on the floor
Wrong Impression
| Rating: | ★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Pop |
| Artist: | Natalie Imbruglia |
Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why I'm always alone
When you're in my dreams
Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why you're finding it hard
Just looking at me
I want you
But I want you to understand
I need you
I love you
Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
(Yea) Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to
Make a connection
Of love (Yea Yea ooh)
Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
If this was ever more
Than a crazy idea
Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
What we could've been
If you'd only let me in
I want you
But I want you to understand
I miss you
I love you
Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
(Yea) Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to
Make a connection
(Yea)Of love
Have you ever wondered (Yea,Yea...ooh)
I need you
I love you
Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
(Yea) Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to
Make a connection
(Yea)Of love
I Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
(Yea) Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to
Make a connection
(Yea)Of love
I Didn't want to leave you there(Calling out)
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction but Im calling out
Wishing I Was There
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Pop |
| Artist: | Natalie Imbruglia |
Take your hand
And place it in my pocket
Flick your eyes back in their sockets
Put those thoughts away
Sometimes theyre much to loud
Ill take a breath
And cradle your sweet head
Shouldve stayed at home in bed
Put that face away
Im melting for you
I know, I get cold
Cos I cant leave things well alone
Understand Im accident prone
Me, I get free
Every night the moon is mine
But when the morning comes
Dont say you love me
Dont say you need me
I really dont think thats fair
Boy Im not so dumb
But when you leave me
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there
I dreamt about another girl in bed with you
You just laughed and smiled
Denied the proof
Were fine till I think of the problem
I wish it made sense
Like a joke that no one gets
Its a life without regret
I want to feel that way, forever and ever
I know, I get cold
Cos I cant leave things well alone
Understand Im accident prone
Me, I get free
Every night the moon is mine
But when the morning comes
Dont say you love me
Dont say you need me
I really dont think thats fair
Boy Im not so dumb
But when you leave me
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing I was there
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing I was there with you
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing I was there
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing I was there with you
Dont say you love me
Dont say you need me
I really dont think thats fair
Boy Im not so dumb
But when you leave me
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there with you
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there with you
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there with you
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there with you
Shakespeare in love
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Pop |
| Artist: | Layla Kaylif |
He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see
Teachin' torches to burn bright
She's hanging on the cheek of night
A snowy dove trooping with crows
He never saw true beauty till tonight
CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see
His bounty's boundless like the sea
His love is endless, just as deep
The more he gives the more he has
`Cause both of them are truly infinite
CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love
A sinister romantic
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Friday, October 5, 2007
health is wealth
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Saturday, September 29, 2007
PROST, oktoBIERfest!
(UP German Club)
in cooperation with
InWent and DED
presents
"PROST, oktoBIERfest!"
a night of German Bier, Food & Musik
October 19, 2007
7:00pm
Katips Bar & Grillery
featuring performances from
Stonefree
Chubibo
The Pin-up Girls
The Chongkeys
Stella's Notch
France
The News
Kadangyan
Makopa
Salamin
and many more.
brought to you by
Made4u
RX 93.1
Chalk
tickets @ P150
For ticket reservations, contact Pam @
09156484260/09202178450 or Mark @
09155969289 or email us @
up_german_club@yahoo.de
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Mojo Gym mit Pammy
there was a little space in the gym where people can buy food and eat.. as pammy was warming up, i went alone to the kiosk to claim the food. i was lead to a table where 3 men were already seated, there's only one seat left so i refused. upon saying no, one of the guys looked up and oh no, i knew him. just cant remember his name. so i moved in to the boxing room and sat near the ring. later that night, i realized it was polo ravales. star struck? haha. ewww.
Monday, September 17, 2007
That Day
that day's so far from now..i moved on!
That Day
Written by Natalie Imbruglia/Patrick Leonard
Well that day, that day
What a mess, what a marvel
I walked into that cloud again and I lost myself
And I'm sad, sad, sad, small, alone, scared
Craving purity, a fragile mind
And a gentle spirit
That day, that day
What a marvellous mess
This is all I can do, I'm done, to be me
Sad, scared, small, alone, beautiful
It's supposed to be like this
I accept everything
It's supposed to be like this
That day, that day
I lay down beside myself
In this feeling of pain, sadness, scared, small
Climbing, crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see
And I'm tired and I'm right
And I'm wrong and it's beautiful
That day, that day
What a mess, what a marvel
We're all the same and no one thinks so
And it's OK
And I'm small and I'm divine and it's beautiful
And it's coming and already here
And it's absolutely perfect
Well that day, that day
When everything was a mess
And everything was in place
And there's too much hurt, sad, small
Scared, alone and everyone's a cynic
And it's hard and it's sweet
But it's supposed to be like this
Well that day, that day
When I sat in the sun
And I thought and I cried 'cos I'm sad
Scared, small, alone, strong
And I'm nothing and I'm true
Only a brave man can break through
And it's all OK, yeah it's OK
That day, that day
I lay down beside myself
In this feeling of pain, sadness, scared, small
Climbing, crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see
And I'm tired and I'm right
And I'm wrong and it's beautiful
Well that day, that day
What a mess, what a marvellous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's OK
And I'm small and I'm divine and it's beautiful
And it's coming and it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect
(Oh oh, ah ha)
That day, that day
(Mmm) That day, that day
Well that day, that day
When I lay down beside myself
In this feeling of pain, sadness, scared, small
Climbing, crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see
And I'm tired and I'm right
And I'm wrong and it's beautiful
That day, that day
What a mess, what a marvellous mess
We're all the same but no one thinks so
And it's OK
And I'm small and I'm divine and it's beautiful
And it's coming and it's already here
And it's absolutely perfect
That day, that day
That day, that day
That day, that day
That day, that day
So sweet, can I feel it (Mmm)
Are you here, are you here with me
I can feel it
And it's beautiful
That day, that day
smile and the world smiles with you
Friday, September 14, 2007
pasikatin lalo si INDAY
I believe that my trained skills and expertise in management with the use of standard tools and my discipline and experience will contribute significantly to the value of work that you want. My creativity, productivity, and work efficiency and the high quality of outcome I can offer will boost the work progress.
-Sagot ni Inday sa bago niyang amo
"I stay awake in the coldness of the darkened sky contemplating why, for some reasons, has my emptiness manifested, extending to that niche where I was given life and growth, that because of austerity I was made separate from..."
-Inday, hindi makatulog dahil nahohomesick
"I am solitary. I find it hard to succumb into slumber, though the downpour of rain should've made it easy. This exuberant emotional glue I have for you, cannot be simply washed away. The multiplicity of what I feel for you is inevitable. This isn't platonic. It's real, true romance."
-Inday, nageemote sa may bintana, habang iniisip si Dodong, ang boyfriend niya
"The statute restricts me to love you but you have the provocation. The way you smile is the proximate cause why I love you. We have some rules to think of. We have no vested rights to love each other because the upper household dismissed my petition!"
-Inday, nakipagbreak kay Dodong (driver ng kapitbahay)
"Dear Sir/Madam,
Attached herewith is a list of proposed acquisition in line with my proposal to upgrade your household facilities. I have already made an initial survey of current market prices. Note, however, that prices could vary depending on the prevailing exchange rate and aggregate supply and demand, which we also monitor on an hourly basis."
-Inday, nagpapaalam mamalengke
Amo: Inday bumili ka nga ng mga isda... ay teka, oo nga pla inglisira ka... Would you please purchase many fishes for this week's meals?
Inday: Judging from your statement I believe you meant a variety of fish. The term "fishes", although rarely and even erroneously used, connotes a plethora or an array of different kinds of the aforementioned gilled creatures. But the more pressing questions before I traverse the road to the wet market would be: What certain type of fish? Fillet or not? Frozen or just right smack the day's catch? (Pauses) Aaah... by manner of careful extrapolation, given the meager budget in this household's quasi-peasant middle class taste, I assume then I will source the staple "galewng-gowng" . Am I correct?
Amo: Leche!
Inday: You meant the freshwater milkfish? Then the "ba-ngooz" is it!
La vida no es una broma actualmente. El dinero es tan duro de pasar. Puede usted bajar el precio parci mi? Soy ya su compradora avido diario por favor?"
-Inday, tumatawad sa merkado ng isinama siya ng amo sa España
Drunken shrimp and blue lobster meat with caviar served with milagrosa rice (red variety) and apricot sauce; vegetables in balsamic vinegar splashed with extra virgin olive oil; lychee and peach salad with sour cream cheese topped with lemon zests
-Baon ni Junior sa daycare na inihanda ni Inday
Bloody hell!!! What the f*ck did just land on my cutie top? I mean I've spent all day just to make myself look fabulous. I think I'll have this eewy thing removed in a whip wham of time!"
-Reaction ni Inday nung natalsikan siya ng mantika habang nagluluto ng tilapia
Ipomea aquatica has become the constant ingredient to this Filipino delicacy which is very helpful in the digestion during the peristaltic process of the food we intake. Due to the continuous rains and floods, the harvest of the said vegetable has lessened the production in the market.
-Banat ni Inday kung bakit walang kangkong sa nilutong sinigang
Heavy fire that was exerted by the stimulus affect the best conductor of heat which is the steel, causing the "Oriza sativa" which is the scientific name of rice to change its state of color, smell, as well as the taste.
-Sagot ni Inday nang tanungin siya ng amo kung bakit nasunog ang sinaing
Off you go! Under no circumstance this house would relent to such unabashed display of vagrant destitution!
-Inday, pinapaalis ang makulit na pulubi sa gate
Allergens triggered the immune response. Eosinophilic migration occurs at the reaction site and release of chemotactic and anaphylotoxin including histamine and prostaglandins. These substances result to increase circulation to the site promoting redness.
-Sagot ni inday nung tanungin ni Sir kung bakit may rashes si Junior
Amo: Day! Bakit may bukol si Junior?
Inday: Compromising safety with useless aesthetics, the not-so-well engineered architectural design of our kitchen lavatory affected the boy's cranium with a slight boil at the left temple near the auditory organ.
Amo: (Di nakareact)
Dear Mom,
Had it not been for the smelling salt, I must have collapsed moments ago. Junior has become a little monster to me. Remember the head accident he had? As if it wasn't enough, he was summoned by the principal of his shabbily-run academe. Oh, such an erudite bunch
of baboons! I never thought that being a governess can be such a strenuous employ.
Your daughter,
Inday
Dear Inday,
Walanghiya ka! Magpadala ka ng pera! Nasa ospital
nanay mo, dumugo ang ilong kababasa ng pesteng sulat
mo!
Tatay
Amo: Bakit tuwing pag-uwi ko, nadadatnan kitang
nanunuod ng TV?
Inday: Because I don't want you to see me doing absolutely nothing!
Amo: Inday di ba nanood ka ng The Buzz kahapon? Bkit daw umalis si Angel Locsin sa GMA7?
Inday: Sometimes people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons, but because they just know that things will get worse if they'll stay. Leaving can be a tough act and it's harder when people can't understand you for doing so.
Physical stress and excessive work may result to serious damage to one's body. It is therefore essential that once in a while we take a break from our usual routine to replenish the lost energy we once had."
-Sabi ni Inday sa amo noong humingi siya ng day off
The consistency was fine. But you see, it seems that the increased amount of sodium affected the taste drastically and unfortunately, after several minutes of analytical thought, it seems that the situation has become irreversible. I do apologize. Utmost care will be taken next time.
-Nageexplain si Inday sa amo kung bakit maalat ung ulam na niluto niya
Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart that weakens the brain, causes the eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker!
-Si Inday, gumagawa ng blog niya sa friendster
A change in the weather patterns might have occured causing havoc to affected surroundings. The way debris are scattered indicates that the gust of wind is going northeast, causing damage to the path it is going.
-Sagot ni Inday sa amo nung tinanong kung bakit nagkalat ang basura sa likod ng bahay
Much as I want to indulge in the proliferation of such indecent and malicious information, I want to lift the stigma and alleviate society's perception of our profession.
-Inday, tumatangging makipagtsismisan sa katulong sa kabilang bahay
Amo: Inday, anong ginagamit mo sa katawan mo? Ang kinis mo kasi! Siguro gumagamit ka ng papaya o kaya kalamansi?
Inday: NO! ONLY BELO TOUCHES MY SKIN! Who touches yours?
There are tulips in the street, there are tulips in the park, but nothing compares to our two lips meeting in the dark!
-Dodong, sinusuyo si Inday
Away ni Inday at Ederlyn
derlyn: Walang hiya ka! Wala kang karapatang pantayan ako! Hayop ka! You're nothing but a second rate, trying hard, copycat!
Inday: Excusemoi? Me, a copycat?! Your mockery is so lame and your attempt at English is so predictable! Why don't you open your eyes to the fact that your glory days are over?! Your persistence to persuade people to come to a party that does not exists is simply ridiculous and cheaply constructed! It's beginning to get to my nerves! You and your petty schemes! No one undermined Inday's intellect, you low life bitch!
CV :
Name: Inocencia Binayubay
Nickname: Inday
Age: 18
Parents: Aling Seling & Mang Andoy
Siblings: Iying, 13; Itoy, 8; Iking, 5
Educational background: Elementary: Sta. Monica Elementary School (valedictorian, best in dancing); High School: P. Gomez High School (valedictorian, best in English); currently taking up BA English Studies at UP Diliman, 2nd year; has plans for further study abroad; is also currently taking some units at DLSU and ADMU
Work experience: 3 years Household Service Manager (a.k.a katulong)
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Amazing DV Race
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
would you ever cry if i die?
Monday, September 3, 2007
when death is the only solution
suddenly
seems to
halt
and
one cant find
a
reason
to
live
time
is
frozen
dreams
are
forgotten
inspiration
is
nowhere to be found
cant
move on
not
one
reason
to
go on
where is faith when one needed it most?
where is hope?
where is strength?
Powerless
what a word to describe
someone who's lost in space and time?
unaware
of whereever she's standing
clueless
on where she's headed
too frail to stand and walk
too weak to face failure
too eager to give up
only
a
miracle
can
save
her
from
this
misery
Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
sex and the city quiz
| Rating: | ★★★★ |
| Category: | Other |
Which Sex and the City Character Are You? | |
| You are Carrie. You know what you want out of a relationship and you're not afraid to keep moving until you get it. Wit and charm are your biggest turn-ons, and you like guys who appreciate you for your mind as much as your body. You have fun playing the dating game, but secretly you just can't wait to find the guy who sweeps you off your feet and carries you into the sunset. | |
| Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com | |
reading romance
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
wednesday
my health fluctuated drastically since last week. i become weaker, i have this stuff with my tummy for a week now, severe headaches from time to time, lbm (yikes), i dunno what's happening but i just pretend that i'm okay. .but sometimes, i cant help not to cry out loud! i wanted to see a doctor but, aside from the storm the past week, i already know what the doctor will tell me so i chose not to. i know this isnt just a physical matter, i'm not emotionally fit for months now, i've been trying to let go of the extra baggages that i've been carrying, making it hard for me to move on, but i just cannot. last night, i was feverish. i know it can get worse coz my joints feel awkward and my flesh feels as if it's being torn apart--sign of flu. so i had to go to bed early. well, i tried hard to. earlier than the previous days, i was able to sleep past midnight. but then, i suddenly woke up at around 2am. then, just a few seconds passed, my fone vibrated. somebody wanted to chat with me! no way, i need to be ok the next day so i tried to go back to sleep but to no avail. i tried to make up stories in my mind, just what i always do whenever i need to fall asleep, but it didnt work. the long hand of the clock pointed to 7 while the short one was just a little beyond 4. i decided to get up, grab some food to eat, feed my cats and go online. i just intended to check my mails and other social network accounts but i ended up writing a blog. i was halfway through this blog when my alarm rang out so loud i had to run to my bed when blagg, i didnt see this chair so i hit it with my left shin! now i have this small skinned area on my shin. enough of this rubbish talk. and hey, i lost my momentum to write. i am actually playing a music challenge on facebook at the same time. i know i need to log-out and start reviewing my math notes, or try going back to sleep again. i just went again to the WC (yikes again) and now my head's starting to ache. darn it's 6:21am. i thought i'm gonna write something coherent this time but i think i did otherwise. i multitasked again. God bless my grey Wednesday!
Nuisance
| Rating: | ★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Christian & Gospel |
| Artist: | John Reuben |
Nuisance
John Reuben
(Feat. Matt Theissen from Relient K)
So here we are in the same old spot,
knowing something needs to happen but our mouths are locked.
tongue tied, closed tight, sealed shut yup.
I tried hard,
but it just wouldn�t come up.
It's on the tip of my tongue,
it's in the front of my mind.
But the words were still so hard to find.
Finally the reality of things to come pushed me to the edge.
I jumped off the cliff into the abyss as I said,
Chorus
I�m not trying to be a nuisance.
I just think we can do better than this.
That was simply my two cents.
You can, you can, take it or leave it.
The conversation lingered on and on,
Before I knew it, night had turned to dawn.
We'll be searching for the truth in all of this
ha, or are we debating, just to win the argument.
Cause none of us wanna hear about where we go wrong.
This song could easily be from me to you, or me to john.
Cause I have the potential, to be the guiltiest ha.
My greatest strength is also my strongest weakness.
chorus
chorus
Let's think about this path that we're taking,
Let's think about this future we're creating.
Let's think about this life that is fading,
Think about it
Come on, think about now
Lets think about this time we're spending,
Investing in monetary things that are ending.
Let's think about it then.
Let's think together.
Let's think about what we can do to make it better.
chorus
chorus
chorus
chorus
We can, we will do better than this.(repeated)
Sunday, August 19, 2007
on friendship and happiness
i wrote this way back in april for a class, i think i need to do a lot of editing coz this was a rush work haha. i havent even finished this YET.
On Friendship and Happiness
It will be difficult to discuss the relationship between friendship and happiness without mentioning love. As I gathered in the Nicomachean Ethics, “love is an activity that brings about friendship and therefore happiness at the end”. It means that when you don’t love yourself, you wouldn’t be good to yourself nor be friend to your self therefore it will be difficult for you to be good to others or even be friends with others; and when you have no friend, happiness is difficult to attain. As I understand Aristotle, self love is important for us to see our selves’ worth but not to the extent that we become self-centered that we don’t care for other beings. Self love means that one must love one’s self therefore he will do things or activities that will improve himself only to be of help to other people. Aristotle even said that “To be a good man, one should love himself.” It is important for one to be a good man for a good man is surely a good friend that everyone desires. And also the saying “charity begins at home” as a definition of love only intensifies the importance of self love. For charity means sharing to others what you possess. So how one will be able to share to others something he doesn’t posses? The act of charity that most politicians claim to do is not really a genuine charity for what they share to people actually came from the people (the taxes they paid). If a poor farmer owns a piece of land and he planted crops on it and persevere each day to yield good crops and on the harvest time he shares his produce with his sick neighbor who is in need of assistance, that can be called charity for the farmer shares what genuinely is his. And if the farmer enrolled on a seminar about farming so he can do his craft better, can’t it be called self love? When one loves himself in order to be good at what he does thinking that he can share more to others later on, isn’t it altruism as well? Therefore self love promotes altruism. It may sound paradoxical but I believe that when one loves himself so that he can share more to the good of many others, it is indeed unselfishness.
I guess children naturally are unselfish, or should I just speak for myself. As a child, I thought less of myself and thought more of the people around me. I also thought about the things surrounding me like my pet dogs, the matters old people were discussing and were said that I cannot understand for I was young, about life (I remember asking my mom the reason of our existence on earth when I was four or five) and the things that are not yet known to me then but I knew existed. I also thought of helping the poor old woman cross the street but I just cannot cross the street. I thought of the reason why we use Gumamela to make bubbles instead of the Sampaguita. The less I thought of my self the happier I was. I don’t really agree when Aristotle said that “a boy is not happy owing to his age…for it is required not only complete virtue but also a complete life…” for my happiest days were in my childhood when I believe I made friends not based on utility nor pleasure for I have not yet the notion of utility, perhaps pleasure but I can say it was based on virtue for the friendships I made then still exists now although there are not benefits I can think of that they get from me nor I from them. And I can say those were the happy days and not pleasurable days for it lasted for a long time. Or Aristotle may be right in saying that for as I grew up, happiness seemed to be out of reach so were friends.
Friendship for me is a relationship that I don’t put so much trouble on as I grew up. I was aware that we are social being but there was this point in my life when I believed that we can be self-sufficient and we don’t need anybody to lead a “good” life and be happy. And those were my dark days. The end I was struggling for then was contentment. I thought not of happiness but of contentment. I thought people and relationships bring about pains and sufferings so I distanced my self from people. Though many of my acquaintance would say I am friendly, in truth I only have a handful of friends. I mean, my kind of friendship comes in layers—from the best friend to the mere acquaintance. When I was a kid, I have peers who have what they call best friends. And I don’t have one, probably, because I have such a high standard for a best friend. I believed that a best friend must be a perfect friend. My best friend must understand me at all times and accept me for who I really am and not with what I have (maybe I was then thinking of the idea of friendship based on virtue but it cannot be for I have so many conditions) and other qualifications I can think of. So I just settled for the several close friends I have then. They were reliable and truthful to me. And as I grew up these close friends remained as they were but some of them I promoted to a higher degree of friendship until one of them finally became my best friend. We’ve known each other since we were eight and we’ve been friends for a long time but only in college that we declared that we are each other’s best friends. It was during my dark days that our friendship became really close. As it were my “self-sufficient days”, she’s maybe one of the exceptions that I made. I tried to prove that a man can really be self-sufficient (my own terms: I didn’t get my allowance from my parents but I did survived from my tutorial earnings but still not self-sufficient for I relied on somebody else) but I proved myself wrong. I had not a clue why I was trying hard to isolate myself from people. I might be tired of interacting with them but what can I do, it is indeed necessary for a man to interact with another. Aristotle said that “even a happy man need friends for friends is the greatest of external goods…a good man need people to do well by”. How much more a confused teenager would need people to get by? That maybe the way I got a true friendship in my troubled days. But isn’t it a friendship based on utility for I needed someone who I can trust my self with? But on my part it is indeed a friendship based on virtue for after several years gone by, and though I thought I wasn’t really a “good man” then, the friendship remained intact. Aristotle also said that “friendship is a way to make us happy”. I agree with him for the mere presence of friends uplift one’s spirit especially on bad times. “The man who is to be happy will therefore need virtuous friends” as it is in the readings but where can we find those good men?
There are decreasing good men these days if we would take Aristotle’s definition of a good man. Maybe there are still virtues men these days. But distinguishing a virtues man from a pretender is quite hard to do. Trust is an essential element on relationships especially on friendships, but how can one be assured that the trust would not be betrayed? Of course it is a risk to trust another person. But if one wouldn’t take the risk, no relationship will be formed. And the thing that I don’t like in myself is that I always tend to trust people even strangers. And even when the trust had been betrayed the first time, I would still give the person the benefit of the doubt as Aristotle put it , a good friend thinks that “he would never wrong me” to his friend. But such thought is only applicable on “friendships among good men for both are friends for their own sake…for the virtue of their goodness”. Why can’t all friendships be like that? “True friendship”, according to Aristotle, “is without qualification, good or pleasant seems to be good and desirable—friendship is a state of character—mutual love involves choice and choice springs from state of character” So what is the relationship between happiness and friendship?
It is said that “we all wanted eternal happiness.” It is also said that friendship brings about happiness. If happiness is the ultimate end and we can attain it through our relationshipwith others, i.e.friendship, therefore we must be at all times be good to ourselves so to be good to others so to gain friends and finally reach the eternal happiness.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
clueless
Friday, August 17, 2007
Butterfly
this is the Mariah Carey that i like as a kid, no boobworks yet and what a natural hair there, no rebond/hair spa then yet she still looks gorgeous..
the real reason i uploaded this mv, aside from the fact that it's wonderfully made, is that the song captures exactly how i feel now. i used to listen to it way way back. i loved the melody but i was too young then to understand the meaning of the lyrics that goes with it. it's just now that i understand it, i can relate to it..soo muchh..enjoy watching!
Butterfly lyrics
Artist: Mariah Carey
Verse 1
ooh ooh
When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands and watch you rise
Chorus
Spread you wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Verse 2
I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly (butterfly)
Bridge
I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly (my butterfly)
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be (you and I)
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Fly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly.
rainy days
the Simpsons
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Movies |
| Genre: | Kids & Family |
Mario meets Homer
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Other |
Game Plan--farewell episode
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Other |
Trivia Question: Who among the 3 Paolos in gameplan is my crush?
Thursday, August 16, 2007
drive
i've been watching various films lately, hoping to draw inspiration from it. i just watch film on that purpose. dont get me wrong, i love watching films (especially the ones that give me goose bumps--not exactly thrillers coz i'm not into that type of films--but those that give me something..a lesson maybe or hope or anything that will make me keep going on with my life) especially in cinemas but i dont often do it coz i'm afraid i might get addicted to it..so i always stay away from the dvds at home. going back, i've been dropping a lot of important things lately. i feel so static again. i lost my drive for the nth time. i feel that i reached an end..that my life stops here..but i dont wanna believe that. i wanna believe that i just fell on a muddy puddle and i will be able to get up again, stand and clean myself and move on with the journey. i cant remember exactly how many films i had seen since yesterday when i was supposed to be studying for a completion exam tomorrow. but then i dont regret anything at all. somehow, the last 2 movies i've seen was quite successful on getting me back on my feet. i just hope that i wound totally find my way back into myself again in no time. and when i do, i hope i would stay driven for a longer time. i still wanna move on, grow up and keep on walking til i reach my destination.
Bajm- Rzeka marzeń
i dunno why i like this song.
Ostatni oddech s³oñca przynosi wiatr
pod z³ot¹ ³une, pod œwiata p³on¹cy dach.
Znad Rzeki Wspomnieñ obraz unosi sie:
dom twój daleki zgubiony dawno gdzieœ.
Z dala od bliskich, w nieznane rzuci³ los,
w gwarze tajemnic brzmi nowy, nieznany g³os.
Znad Rzeki Wspomnieñ ob³ok unosi sie:
dom twój daleki zgubiony dawno gdzieœ.
Wyci¹gnij d³onie i chwyæ marzenie,
ono rozproszy z³e losów cienie.
Niechaj nadziei skrzyd³a bia³e
z powrotem nios¹ cie, jak wiatr.
Wyci¹gnij d³onie i chwyæ marzenie,
ono rozproszy z³e losów cienie.
Niechaj nadziei skrzyd³a bia³e
z powrotem nios¹ cie, jak wiatr.
I wtedy czujesz, jak dobrze mo¿e byæ,
kiedy bezpiecznym snom ju¿ nie zagra¿a nic.
Znad Rzeki Wspomnieñ ksie¿yc odsuwa mg³e,
dom twój daleki znowu odp³ywa gdzieœ...
Wyci¹gnij d³onie i chwyæ marzenie,
ono rozproszy z³e losów cienie.
Niechaj nadziei skrzyd³a bia³e
z powrotem nios¹ cie, jak wiatr.
Wyci¹gnij d³onie i chwyæ marzenie,
ono rozproszy z³e losów cienie.
Niechaj nadziei skrzyd³a bia³e
z powrotem nios¹ cie, jak wiatr.
Ostatni oddech s³oñca przynosi wiatr
Tak, wyci¹gnij d³onie i chwyæ marzenie...
Thank God I Found You
| Rating: | ★★★★ |
| Category: | Music |
| Genre: | Pop |
| Artist: | Mariah Carey feat Joe and 98 degrees |
Stranger than Fiction
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Movies |
| Genre: | Science Fiction & Fantasy |
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
itsi bitsi petit bikini
by dalida (from a movie)..i actually first heard the song from the movie called "a good year"..i got a copy of that version in my playlist here, just check it out..it's really cute..
ITSY BITSY PETIT BIKINI
( Itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini )
Salvet – Morisse – Vance – Pockriss
Sur une [C]plage il y avait une belle [Dm7]fille
[G7]Qui avait [Dm7]peur d’aller [G7]prendre son [C]bain
Elle craignait de quitter sa ca[F]bine
Elle trem[C]blait de mon[Dm7]trer aux [G7]voi[C]sins
[Tracet]
1 – 2 – 3 Elle tremblait de montrer quoi
[G7]Son [Dm7]pe[C#dim]tit [G7]itsy bitsy teenie weenie
[C]Tout petit petit bikini
[G7]Qu’elle mettait pour la [C]première fois
Un [G7]itsy bitsy teenie weenie
[C]Tout petit petit bikini
[G7]Un bikini rouge et [F]jau[C]ne à [G7]p’tits [C]pois
1 – 2 – 3 Voilà ce qui arriva
Elle ne songeait qu’à quitter sa cabine
Elle s’enroula dans son peignoir de bain
Car elle craignait de choquer ses voisines
Et même aussi de gener ses voisins
1 – 2 – 3 Elle craignait de montrer quoi
Son petit itsy bitsy teenie weenie
Tout petit petit bikini
Qu’elle mettait pour la première fois
Un itsy bitsy teenie weenie
Tout petit petit bikini
Un bikini rouge et jaune à p’tits pois
1 – 2 – 3 Voilà ce qui arriva
Elle doit maintenant s’élancer hors de l’ombre
Elle craint toujours les regards indiscrets
C’est le moment de faire voir à tout le monde
Ce qui la trouble et qui la fait trembler
1 – 2 – 3 Elle a peur de montrer quoi
Son petit itsy bitsy teenie weenie
Tout petit petit bikini
Qu’elle mettait pour la première fois
Un itsy bitsy teenie weenie
Tout petit petit bikini
Un bikini rouge et jaune à p’tits pois
Si cette histoire vous amuse on peut la recommencer
Mais si c’est pas drôle on s’excuse
En tout cas c’est terminé
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Harry Potter
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Movies |
| Genre: | Science Fiction & Fantasy |
Ang Obra ng Maestro from ProbeTV
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Other |
Friday, August 3, 2007
Wenn das Liebe ist
exactly how i feel now :|
Bin unter Tränen eingeschlafen
bin unter Tränen wieder aufgewacht
hab' über dieselbe beschissene Frage
zwei Millionen mal nachgedacht
Hab' mich verdreht und mich gewendet
mit dem selben Scheissproblem
für dich ist es beendet,
aber ich, ich, ich kann dich sehen
ich kann dich sehen
Kann nicht schlafen kann nicht essen
Ich kann es nicht verstehen
Du hast mich vergessen
während Erinnerungen mich lähmen
Hab' Angst vor dem Abend
mir graut vor der Nacht
weil dann genau dieselbe Frage
mich wach hält, warum bist du nicht da
Warum bist du nicht da
Wenn das Liebe ist,
warum bringt es mich um den Schlaf
Wenn das Liebe ist,
warum raubt es mir meine Kraft
Wenn das Liebe ist,
sag mir was es mit mir macht
Wenn das Liebe ist,
was, was, was ist dann Hass
Was ist dann Hass
Wenn das liebe ist
warum tut es so weh?
Tausend Mal deine Nummer gewählt
und tausend Mal wieder aufgelegt
Die ganze Kacke eh keinem erzählt
Wer versteht schon wie du mir fehlst
Genau das bedingt den
ganzen anderen Stress
Leider kann ich nicht so viel trinken
dass ich, dass ich dich vergess´
Das ich dich vergess´
Wenn das Liebe ist,
warum bringt es mich um den Schlaf
Wenn das Liebe ist,
warum raubt es mir meine Kraft
Wenn das Liebe ist,
sag mir was es mit mir macht
Wenn das Liebe ist,
was, was, was ist dann Hass
Was ist dann Hass
In meinem Leben
denn ich brauche dich in meinem leben
meine farben verblassen wenn meine sonne nicht scheint
brauche dich zum überleben
wie fische das wasser kann nicht ohne dich sein
kann nicht sein
kann nicht sein
Wahrscheinlich is´ das hier die regel
man lebt eine weile ganz glücklich zu zweit
irgendwann trennen sich die wege
und jeder geht einfach seinen eigenen allein
doch was mich betrifft könntest du genauso gut wenn
du gehen willst mir arme und beine abtrennen
Wahrscheinlich ist es so im leben
nichts ist für ewig alles vergeht mit der zeit
verbindungen reissen wie fäden
wie töricht es sein muss zu wollen, dass was bleibt
doch in meinem fall ist es ein anderes problem
wer mir dich nimmt kann mir ebenso augen und ohren nehmen
Ich frag´ mich was ich dem entgegne
das so wie es aussieht hier die regel zu sein
scheint denn ich brauch´ dich in jedem
fall hier bei mir wie soll ich`s beschreiben
du bist für mich unentbehrlich und ich bete dafür,
dass du bleibst weil wenn du gehst es mir die kehle abschnürt
Glashaus site
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Other |
i've been listening to their songs for quite sometime now but i havent seen them til i browsed their site today and well, they're really amazing. i just love their style..and yeah, their music videos as well.
i dunno why i kept on listening to it
unten Links im Bild erkennt man die Zwei,
Schwenk zur Seite steht der Schnellimbisswagen,
schon geschlossen `n Taxi fährt vorbei,
Nahaufnahme fast schon zu lässig.
leicht zurückgelehnt steht er an der Wand
und murmelt: "Mit dir und mir is´ nun endgültig Essig"
klingt bescheuert und doch so bekannt
Drum sag´ ich mir
is´ nur Kino
alles halb so schlimm
is´ nur Kino
nur ein schlechter Film
in den ich reingeraten bin.
Is´ nur Kino
Alles halb so schlimm.
Doch ich fühl´ mich so
als wär´ ich mittendrin.
Ich rutsch´ tiefer in den Sessel und fühl´ mich benommen.
Dreh´ mich zur Seite doch du bist längst weg.
Les´ im Abspann unsere Namen verschwommen.
Jetzt noch `ne Änderung im Drehbuch das hätt´ wohl keinen Zweck.
Drum sag´ ich mir
is´ nur Kino
alles halb so schlimm
is´ nur Kino
nur ein schlechter Film
in den ich reingeraten bin.
Is´ nur Kino
Alles halb so schlimm.
Doch ich fühl´ mich so
als wär´ ich mittendrin.
by glashaus