Saturday, July 28, 2007
unsuccessful
darn, just minutes after i posted my last blog entry, a news report flashed on the telly saying that it wasnt the cloud seeding that caused the heavy rain to pour this afternoon but a thunderstorm. waaah..i'm really unwell tonight.
successful cloud seeding?
For the past two days, i'd seen/heard alarming news about drought in the northern Luzon and the inverted weather pattern our country has been experiencing. And for the past days, i've been experiencing weird physical (for lack of words) troubles which might've been brought about by this weird weather that we have now. Weird phenomenon because for one, i'm not in the sickly type of person. And most of my close acquaintances couldnt believe that i can get sick too. Second, it's reccurring. Never had i been sick that often. And oh, it's not about that break-up. Emotionally, i think i'm kinda strong. I'm getting over it. I really am (fingers crossed). It was also my choice. I gotta admit i've been hurt badly by it coz if i had a choice, i wouldnt allow it to happen, but i hadnt. And i'm not blaming it for all the troubles that struck me. It might've contributed but i am more raging at the weird weather that has been bugging me for weeks now. I have several responsibilities to attend to and i fail at some because physically, i'm not capable (yeah, felt like a handicap). And really, even i coudnt believe how often i had been not feeling physically well. I wanna do more. I dont want to miss any class and deadline and tupad too. And this weather is a big distraction to me. It makes me unproductive. And there you go again, it was blazing hot this morning and then, lo and behold--it rained this afternoon, and it really poured. Imagine how wet i got commuting from the tutorial center to my aunt's, which made me a little dizzy up to now. The cloud seeding they did was quite successful. I just hope the rain also reached the cracking soils of northern Luzon farms. And why am i blaming the weird weather? It's just one of the effects of global warming. And i should admit that i also contribute to global warming. And that had just reminded me of the approaching Envi Sci exam. Waaaaahhhh. I need a break. Oh i just had, didnt i? Another waaaah. I should end this nonesense now. I just wanna write again. And i hope i can write better and just do that more often rather than waste my time moping around, thinking about all the things i should do.
Friday, July 27, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
the late lantern parade?
i was in the Vargas Museum one february (or march) afternoon, almost sleepy doing the same task assigned to me for my practicum, when suddenly i and my supervisor heard some drum noise outside. we peeped through the huge museum windows and saw the parade. lucky me, the clock struck four which means it's time for me to go. so i was able to get closer to the parade and take some photos :) and later on i found out that it was the Art's Week
Friday, July 13, 2007
Errolism
Errol - v.t. 1. to look, wait for a guy (who meets our standard) to pass by so we can go home 2. to kill time by sitting on the right spot, at the right time, under the right weather condition waiting for a right reason to get up and go home..haha taken last 10.Juli.2007
my nth bday
i actually hadnt taken a bath yet when the photo was taken..yikes..nor did i comb my hair..grow up lei!
hahaha, trip trip lang..i actually took 70+ photos but i didnt upload them all coz u'll only see the same thing haha
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Nelly Furtado - I'm like a bird
this song captures my very emotion at this very moment...i feel so free...baby ya albe, thanks for all the wonderful memories. i'll always cherish them. -- leiloush
Biology 1-2nd exam
| Start: | Sep 24, '07 |
| End: | Sep 27, '07 |
| Location: | Pavilion 4 |
Biology 1-1st exam
| Start: | Aug 2, '07 11:30a |
| End: | Aug 9, '07 1:00p |
| Location: | Pavilion 4 |
Presentation of thesis proposal
| Start: | Jun 27, '07 |
| End: | Sep 5, '07 |
| Location: | SLIS |
finally, i woke up
six months ago, i never thought that i would fall into a deep sleep. this sleep made me dream a very long dream that seemed so endless. so endless that i don't know when i would finally wake up, or ever thought of it even. it was totally a pleasant dream, but there were times when it almost became a nightmare. those were the times when i really wanna wake up but i couldn't because i felt there's something holding me back. maybe the thought of the happy moments in the dream (there were even blissful moments) made me hope for more of it, and so it held me back.
i was so trapped in that dream but suddenly, thank God, i woke up. i thought I'm gonna regret falling asleep but i didn't. i don't regret dreaming at all. i don't regret having those experiences for the first time, of meeting him, though it was just a dream, it felt so real. and every action, reaction, words, feelings, emotions, practically everything i put in are real. they were real. and i did hope everything i was getting were real too. i wasn't sure then but i think i did get them somehow.
and now that I'm awake, I'm still afraid to open my eyes. i could feel the shafts of lights trying to get through the thin cover of my eyes but I'm still afraid they would hurt my eyes so I'm keeping my eyes closed. it may take me days, or weeks, or months to open these eyes but at least now, I'm out of the dream. i floated and sunk in that dream, i dunno if that will happen in real life too. i wanted to see that myself so i hope i can open my eyes very soon.
meanwhile, i will try to adapt to the real world, though gradual as i can afford. i'll stop trying, i'll start doing things. yes, i'm still afraid to grow up. but i cant always be childish. i'm not peter pan. i cant stay out of reality forever. although i could still dream, but this time, i will try to wake up when i needed to. there are real people around me who accept me the way i am, and who had been there and are always there ready to help me out on this long journey. and i usually ignore them. i guess it's time for me to return some favors.
I'm not sure of the destination of this journey but at least i now know where i wanted to go. i always wanted to end up there so i do pray that i wont go astray again. i also pray that on my way there, i would leave pleasant marks. i used to be so afraid of leaving unpleasant marks, but i always do. now, though i so wanted to erase those marks, i know i couldn't. the only thing i can do is to continue walking. there were times when we wish for a fresh start. but that's another illusion. i always love saying "i want to start anew" to myself but i always end up nowhere. so this time, I'm gonna continue walking. but I'm gonna make sure I'm gonna leave pleasant marks on my way to where I'm headed. i said previously that i wouldn't look back but i think it's healthy to look back once in a while and see how much you progressed. but i would look ahead more this time. that is if I'm able to open my eyes soon enough.
i was so trapped in that dream but suddenly, thank God, i woke up. i thought I'm gonna regret falling asleep but i didn't. i don't regret dreaming at all. i don't regret having those experiences for the first time, of meeting him, though it was just a dream, it felt so real. and every action, reaction, words, feelings, emotions, practically everything i put in are real. they were real. and i did hope everything i was getting were real too. i wasn't sure then but i think i did get them somehow.
and now that I'm awake, I'm still afraid to open my eyes. i could feel the shafts of lights trying to get through the thin cover of my eyes but I'm still afraid they would hurt my eyes so I'm keeping my eyes closed. it may take me days, or weeks, or months to open these eyes but at least now, I'm out of the dream. i floated and sunk in that dream, i dunno if that will happen in real life too. i wanted to see that myself so i hope i can open my eyes very soon.
meanwhile, i will try to adapt to the real world, though gradual as i can afford. i'll stop trying, i'll start doing things. yes, i'm still afraid to grow up. but i cant always be childish. i'm not peter pan. i cant stay out of reality forever. although i could still dream, but this time, i will try to wake up when i needed to. there are real people around me who accept me the way i am, and who had been there and are always there ready to help me out on this long journey. and i usually ignore them. i guess it's time for me to return some favors.
I'm not sure of the destination of this journey but at least i now know where i wanted to go. i always wanted to end up there so i do pray that i wont go astray again. i also pray that on my way there, i would leave pleasant marks. i used to be so afraid of leaving unpleasant marks, but i always do. now, though i so wanted to erase those marks, i know i couldn't. the only thing i can do is to continue walking. there were times when we wish for a fresh start. but that's another illusion. i always love saying "i want to start anew" to myself but i always end up nowhere. so this time, I'm gonna continue walking. but I'm gonna make sure I'm gonna leave pleasant marks on my way to where I'm headed. i said previously that i wouldn't look back but i think it's healthy to look back once in a while and see how much you progressed. but i would look ahead more this time. that is if I'm able to open my eyes soon enough.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Conan - iPhone Commercial
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Monday, July 9, 2007
crAzy mArch 17
from house to yoga class to a canteen to main lib SM North: dog show then BK with malou and rose
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Phantom of the Opera- Sarah Brightman and Steve Harley
Music Video for Phantom of the Opera featuring Sarah Brightman and Steve Harley
The Phantom of the Opera - All i Ask of You
Performance of the German production of The Phantom of the Opera (Phantom der Oper)at ZDF Fernsehgarten. Anne Görner as Christine Daae and Nikolaj Alexander ...
Freundschaftstag
| Start: | Jul 14, '07 9:00p |
| Location: | from Intramuros to München |
Friday, July 6, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
the journey to a thousand mile begins by taking the first step
i think i'm happy today because (1) i finally found my cats, (2) things are slowly falling into their proper places, and (3) i think somehow, i'm growing up.
when i was younger, i never wanna grow up. i don't wanna be like those adults who doesn't see the simple things that makes up life coz they're so blinded by the complicated matters. wealth, fame, power--what are those for? well, i don't wanna lose that innocence (in the other sense of the phrase :P). i don't wanna care about the things around me and rather live in my own world where i am always free to do whatever i want. no problems. no responsibilities. no complications. ironically, i didn't notice how complicated i made life for myself. i did grow old but i didn't really grow up. looking back, i could've done things the way it should be (as prescribed by the natural laws) not the way i wanted it to (as if i really had a good set of choices). but no looking back for me now because somehow, i learned the true sense of the word "acceptance". and i think it's one of the most important lessons i learned in life. people love and lose and win and struggle and sometimes almost die but staring at our frustrations can only make things worse or make life seem unappealing to live that we don't wanna even take the first step to that journey to a thousand mile.
as i am now turning another page of the book called my life's journey, i wish for more improvement in all the aspects of my life. in other words, i'm now ready to grow up...finally :D
when i was younger, i never wanna grow up. i don't wanna be like those adults who doesn't see the simple things that makes up life coz they're so blinded by the complicated matters. wealth, fame, power--what are those for? well, i don't wanna lose that innocence (in the other sense of the phrase :P). i don't wanna care about the things around me and rather live in my own world where i am always free to do whatever i want. no problems. no responsibilities. no complications. ironically, i didn't notice how complicated i made life for myself. i did grow old but i didn't really grow up. looking back, i could've done things the way it should be (as prescribed by the natural laws) not the way i wanted it to (as if i really had a good set of choices). but no looking back for me now because somehow, i learned the true sense of the word "acceptance". and i think it's one of the most important lessons i learned in life. people love and lose and win and struggle and sometimes almost die but staring at our frustrations can only make things worse or make life seem unappealing to live that we don't wanna even take the first step to that journey to a thousand mile.
as i am now turning another page of the book called my life's journey, i wish for more improvement in all the aspects of my life. in other words, i'm now ready to grow up...finally :D
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