wednesday

it's 5 am, time to be up and ready for the day. this day will be a long day. will start at my 10am exam and will end at the UPDV Formal Interview..but i dont think i am ready.

my health fluctuated drastically since last week. i become weaker, i have this stuff with my tummy for a week now, severe headaches from time to time, lbm (yikes), i dunno what's happening but i just pretend that i'm okay. .but sometimes, i cant help not to cry out loud! i wanted to see a doctor but, aside from the storm the past week, i already know what the doctor will tell me so i chose not to. i know this isnt just a physical matter, i'm not emotionally fit for months now, i've been trying to let go of the extra baggages that i've been carrying, making it hard for me to move on, but i just cannot. last night, i was feverish. i know it can get worse coz my joints feel awkward and my flesh feels as if it's being torn apart--sign of flu. so i had to go to bed early. well, i tried hard to. earlier than the previous days, i was able to sleep past midnight. but then, i suddenly woke up at around 2am. then, just a few seconds passed, my fone vibrated. somebody wanted to chat with me! no way, i need to be ok the next day so i tried to go back to sleep but to no avail. i tried to make up stories in my mind, just what i always do whenever i need to fall asleep, but it didnt work. the long hand of the clock pointed to 7 while the short one was just a little beyond 4. i decided to get up, grab some food to eat, feed my cats and go online. i just intended to check my mails and other social network accounts but i ended up writing a blog. i was halfway through this blog when my alarm rang out so loud i had to run to my bed when blagg, i didnt see this chair so i hit it with my left shin! now i have this small skinned area on my shin. enough of this rubbish talk. and hey, i lost my momentum to write. i am actually playing a music challenge on facebook at the same time. i know i need to log-out and start reviewing my math notes, or try going back to sleep again. i just went again to the WC (yikes again) and now my head's starting to ache. darn it's 6:21am. i thought i'm gonna write something coherent this time but i think i did otherwise. i multitasked again. God bless my grey Wednesday!