clutch

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clutch
Saturday March 04th 2006, 11:37 pm

it’s not because i had just lost my clutch bag last friday afternoon that i made it the title of this entry, it’s because i hold onto things too tightly. i mean, i realized how i can become too sentimental that i attach myself too much not just to people but to things as well. my bestfriend had noticed that years ago and she had warned me. she’s right, it’s too painful losing something that has become part of you. but the thing is i didn’t mean to lose it. nobody would want to lose something that is so important to him. before, i was wondering how it is to lose something. now i know how terrible the feeling is. and i don’t like it. before, i can’t understand them, why’d they lost their precious possessions. i would even scold the person who would come to me just to share that he’d lost something. i would say that he has just been utterly irresponsible that’s why it happened. if he had just been watchful…but hey, i should tell it to myself now. i often find myself oblivious but never had i lost more valuable things than umbrella and handkerchief. sigh. the clutch bag contains most of my valuable possessions. but i should be thankful that i was able to save my cellular phone and wallet (contains my IDs, form 5, etc). i hadn’t found yet the lesson i must learn from this, aside from one, to be even more watchful, especially when i’m on a public place. i don’t even want to go out now. hhhaaaayyy. charge to experience? maybe, when i finally get over it. but now, it still bothers me. when will i learn to let go? both on things and persons that’re maybe not meant for me.