sick being sick

how to make your life more miserable when you're sick?
-- non-stop nagging brother on the background
-- unclean dwelling fit for unhealthy pigs (not to mention the stentch)
-- nobody to nurse you but your effin sick self
-- unavailable medication
-- infirmatay doctors who wouldnt even check u up before giving out prescription
-- problematic people around you
-- busy friends
-- besf friend lives far far away
-- mom works far away (well, she wouldnt be nursing me even if she's just around :S i dont miss her)
-- i'd feel better, then i'd feel worse, cycle went on for weeks now :S

how did i cope with this effin situation?
-- got off the bed
-- took a cold shower (it lessen the body heat)
-- went to the mall
-- bought a 16 oz. strawberry banana blizzard (not just good for the cough and colds but for my toothache as well - at least i didnt give in to the brownie tempation)
-- well, speaking of brownies, i bought a pack! :P
-- then a serving of siomai (with the chili-garlic of course)
-- walked around as much as i could

for a while i felt so alive and healthy and happy

until i felt bad again :S

throbbing muscles all over

body temperature rising

non-stop coughing

runny nose

aching tooth

nausea

had no other choice but to go back to bed :(

but at least some cravings has been satiated for a while.

i wonder what to do tomorrow

i just hope i still wake up and feel a lot better.

they say what the mind can conceive can be achieved.

imani is what i needed now

badly